Oh also, Happy Halloween! 

Where I live we don't actually celebrate Halloween, but it has always been fun thinking we do. I've had this tradition over the years, of playing Thriller by Michael Jackson during the week leading to Halloween. I would say it's my contribution to the holiday I never get to celebrate. This year I broke the tradition, but it wasn't because I stopped liking the song. I've just been so busy and out of place that I haven't had the time or spirit to keep up.

This year it seems everything is vacant. Maybe it's the global state everyone's in, or maybe it's just my mind playing tricks, or treats? 

I'm trying to be funny here as if anyone but myself will ever read these entries. 

I like to pretend though. And I'll do just that starting now. I want this to be an embarrassing future discovery, just like my ex-colleague's Blog was. 

I'm having fun. Writing. In school, during my free time in my diary... and now here. 

You see, if you're a native and you don't know any other language...Consider yourself lucky. You don't get confused with words that mean the same, or with writing and speaking expressions. As I'm writing this I am simultaneously realizing how fluent I've become over the years. But yet, I'm still lacking. I'm still learning. And you natives just stand there! And pull this out of your ass! I'm very jealous of you.

Again I enter confusing territory. My teachers tell me I should plan what I write. But writing trash freely is a lot more entertaining. Looking back to the past 10 minutes, I wonder what exactly I'm trying to say in these words. 

I guess I just wanted to remind myself Halloween is today, and wish the invisible ghost bots of the internet a spooky Halloween.

 I never knew I could work on a Blog like this before. 

I remember creating a Blog back in 2010. I debuted on Blogger with a post about my dog Santi, who is a senior now, and not a puppy as the original post may tell you. 

I have vague memories about all of this. 

TV series like to tell you every girl who likes to write has had a Blog at one point; but aren't Blogs out of style? Do people still write these? Or if they do, do they go to other sites? I just remember this being the shit 10 years ago! And now nobody mentions it.

Another time in my life where I came across a Blog was during high school. My colleagues and I had found another colleague's past Blog...It was pretty embarrassing. For her, the girl who had written the Blog and also forgotten about it. 

Is this post going to get exposure? Anywhere? At all? 

Hey if you're reading this just keep in mind I'm a young adult, bored out of mind, trying to escape responsibilities by venting in Blogger. 

Should I call this Blogger or just Blog? My knowledge about these terms is very limited. I didn't even know the site was called Blogger. I thought it was just Blog. 

Does this matter at all? I'm having another existential crisis: of blogs and networks; of internet presence and human worth. 

Hey, want to know the song I'm listening to at the moment? Research Chemicals by Viagra Boys. It's a cool song you should check it out. I'll leave the link below. I can do that, can I not?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7gbFMWZWlo&t=357s